alright everybody thanks for the insight from my situation between my husband and myself.  i took it to heart and decided to go to my beach house on saturday, taking the kids with me.  it was extrememly fun for my babies and although at first it was somewhat depressing, a friend of mine came down later saturday night and stayed until sunday night which was so much fun.  it turned into a girl's trip to the beach.  that is until my husband realized i wasn't at home and he hadn't called me to tell me what he was doing or to ask where i was.  when he found out, he took it upon himself to take off work for a few days and go down there.  it was a complete suprise when he showed up, and while things were ackward at first, everything turned out great.  but i think one thing he felt terrible about was when i had talked to him on the phone, i was real upset and i asked him if we were going to still be together.  he said he didn't know.  that hurt more than anything because if there was ever one person i could count on having faith in our relationship, it was him.  everytime i had doubts about us, i would always ask him if he ever had any second thoughts and he said no that he knew we would be together forever.  he apologized for saying that and told me he was honestly just trying to get off the phone and that he didn't mean what he was saying at all.  so i believe him and things are back to normal.  i really do appreciate the advice from you guys!  i am currently just a homemaker, because my husband loves being the worker of the family and we don't make enough to afford daycare (practically speaking anyway), and i recently met a lady who was looking for someone to watch her 4 month old son during the school year.  i am excited about it because it would be some extra money for doing what i already do, but i am worried that i might get overly exhausted since having a 14 mth and 28 mth old is already a handful.  anybody been in a situation like that or have any suggestions?